on 11/24/03 @ 9:07 p.m.
i started off wanting to write something different today. something not about you. but i can't. it's gotten to the point that all i can write about is you. and gawd you're not even worth it. depressing thought isnt it? i can deal with me not being good enough for you but you not good enough for me? that's refreshing.
YOU are not good enough for me.
funny how i still care.
i hate fighting for worthless things. have you ever heard of that? someone who fell in love with a person they thought was worthless? maybe its not love, maybe its just lust. easy to confuse the two with teenage hormones. i wish that you were someone who would be there. always there.
why arent you here now?
you think you're too good for me. you're so great arent you? with your dignified air and your solid walk. you with your damn charm. excuse the language. you would never say something like that. you have so many places to be, so many people to see. when will you turn back to me? can you tell me?
I can't imagine all the people that you know
and the places that you go
when the lights are turned down low
and I don't understand all the things you've seen
but i'm slipping inbetween
you and your big dreams
it's always you
in my big dreams